A Starseed Life

Hi everyone, you know I keep thinking about how the heck am I expecting to share my life as a starseed in a video? I mean it’s been a pretty long life so far, so obviously that would be one long crazy video. So I think what I’ll do is just pick a topic and make a short video of whatever comes to mind. So, today I thought I would take a few minutes to share the very beginning of my arrival here on earth, as a walk-in starseed.

To begin with ...a short explanation, after the bombing of Hiroshima and Nagasaki ending WWII, an etheric call went out throughout the cosmos for extraterrestrial volunteers of all types and races to come to the aid of planet Earth to assist in the awakening and eventual ascension of humanity. I am one of those ET souls who arrived at that time, along with countless others, with the fundamental purpose of bringing a higher frequency to the planet to help awaken those sleeping humans caught in the cycles of control and manipulation. I am what is known as a first wave starseed, having arrived with those first in line after the war, to be born as a human child, or to come in as a walk-in soul to a body specially prepared to accommodate or house an extraterrestrial soul. Since then there have been two or three other “waves” of starseeds coming in to incarnate as human children or walk-ins of any age.

After arriving in the body of a human child, my first memory is of lying on the grass looking up at a perfect blue sky, hearing the singing of birds and smelling the sweet fragrance of the pink blossoms. I immediately recognized that this was not my world, yet at that same moment was conscious of why I was here. Very near to me, to where I was lying, I could see a human woman hanging clothes on a line and humming softly to herself. I felt so much love and gratitude for this woman who was to become my mother. She was beautiful with dark hair and blue eyes and bare feet that danced over the grass as she dug into a basket pulling out sheets and clothing and waving them in the air before pinning them onto the clothesline.

From those very first moments of life as a human, I felt awkward and unsure of what was expected of me and as I grew up these feelings intensified, never completely at ease with my surroundings and I was often sick as a child and more than once came close to death. I remember numerous nighttime visits to a ship where my body would be tweaked and upgraded to be able to continue holding this alien soul. This still happens. I will share those experiences at a later time.

What made human life bearable were two things, first my human family. They were wonderful and I loved them so much. Second was my ET family. They were always with me, and still are. From the time of my arrival, every night as I closed my eyes, they would come to me, showing themselves as moving vibrating streams or fingers of golden light behind my closed eyes. Sometimes they would speak to me, other times just stay until I left my body. Each night I would feel myself begin to rise up off the bed, higher and higher, and suddenly I would be home. The next thing I would know would be waking up from a dream, wonderful dreams where I might be floating in a sea of crystal clear water, breathing in the water as easily as air, or maybe standing on a cliff high above an ocean of deep blue and watching the waves lapping at the shore, or sitting on a grassy hillside above a green valley filled with wildflowers, or flying way above the tops of trees and then falling backward onto a soft cushion of air and slowly drifting downward until feeling the ground beneath me.

My early childhood was filled with magic, having deep conversations with grasshoppers or the shiny green beetles crawling up the screen, or petting a new batch of kittens, or bottle feeding a new baby lamb, watching ants carrying leaves and stems into a hole, or playing with waterbugs and striders in the creek, or climbing to the tops of trees and singing out a song to the world, “here I am!” My grandmother was the one who named me, a name meaning Divine Gift. She talked to me about God and UFOs and ghosts and angels and played a magical violin with notes so high and pure they would hang in the air as if forever suspended vibrating my chest and moving my heart to tears.

As the years progressed and I started school, I began to see things that were very confusing and upsetting to me. I couldn’t understand why people would gossip and make fun of each other, purposely saying things to hurt someone, or even hitting another person or being mean to a dog or a cat. I had never experienced things like this before and it really disturbed me. I never felt so different, so inadequate to understand what was going on. I alway felt baffled and self-conscious, like something was wrong with me. I went to my mother and asked her why are people so mean to each other here? I asked if I was adopted, because I was so different than my siblings or the others in school. She assured me I wasn’t adopted, but I remember her saying something that really surprised me at the time. She said, “Some day you will realize how special you really are.” Well I sure did not feel special, in fact barely adequate. It turned out she knew a lot more than I realized at the time and I found out later that she had memories of having been brought aboard an ET ship when she was pregnant with the body that would become mine and was told that there had to be some adjustments made to her body that would affect the DNA structure of the fetus. As it was, the baby still didn’t thrive and almost died more than once.

Obviously there is both positive and negative in being a starseed, but especially one with some memory of where they came from. The good about remembering is that you know this is only a temporary stopover and you’re just here to learn and grow, while having an adventure you wouldn’t have anywhere else and if I die, I just zip back home! The bad about having some memory is that the little frustrations that a human might take in stride can seem more defeating to one who remembers a place where these things don’t happen in the same way. For example, how insubstantial material substance is here, everything wears out and breaks, the furnace breaks, the roof needs repaired, clothes wear out, or you get a flat tire, or your body wears out, which doesn’t happen in my world, you need glasses, you lose strength, suddenly you just want to give up. It sucks here and I just want to go home!

The best thing is, that I have learned so much by being here and continue to learn and grow every day. I’ve learned how to be happy in spite of where I am ...or hey, maybe because of it, who knows? Or happy in spite of my circumstances. Well, that said, I definitely know what it’s like to have your heart broken and to yearn so desperately to go home. I know what it’s like to not have any friends, or if I do have a friend I feel like a fraud because I can’t be myself. I know what it’s like to have no one talk to, to be so lonely you want to die, to cry out and beg the universe to let you go back home. I made a mistake - I don’t belong here!

Still, I have learned I shouldn’t expect others to be like me or think like me and to recognize I can learn from everyone, if I just let them be who they are. I had to finally learn to accept and love them as they are and not to expect them to change or become different. I’ve learned that there is beauty everywhere if I’m willing to see it, that the world, this world, can be wonderful, even extraordinary, when I allow myself to view it through the eyes of love and appreciation. Everything is here once you learn to go with the flow, to let it be just what it is, an adventure planet, where every event can be an adventure, whether it’s falling in love or trying a new food, or a new hairstyle, or how about the adventure of getting old, whoa! that’s a big one, or losing a loved one or being betrayed, or watching kids play, sometimes laughing sometimes fighting. It’s a world of duality, good and bad, night and day, friendly unfriendly, happy sad. I know I came for this, just as it is and I guess I might as well stay until my time is up! After all, why would you want to miss the end of the movie, right? See ya soon!