Pre-Birth Memories

Hello everyone,

Well, it’s over 100 degrees again today, so I thought I would just stay inside and answer another question that came in recently. My friend Jane asked me if I would be willing to share my personal pre-birth memories of the process I went through to create the soul-plan for this current life as a starseed walk-in. This is something we had chatted about a couple of times a few years ago and at that time I’m not sure I had ever heard anyone else share a pre-birth story. I did however know there were more than a couple of books written on the subject, so it was obviously out there somewhere. Well, Jane said that she had very recently noticed the topic coming up on YouTube, where a couple of others had revealed their own experiences, so she felt that I should feel comfortable revealing my own. Well I told her I had actually considered talking about this earlier, in the NDE video, but felt it might be to kind “out-there” for some, plus I’m always hesitant to talk about subjects that I still have a lot of questions about and this is one of those topics, where I’m very clear on the memories themselves, such as they are, but have trouble fitting those experiences into other parts of my life memories. You’ll see what I mean as I go on.

So, I’ll do my best to share what I know and what I don’t know. What I mean by this is that some memories are quite distinct, yet they seem to have originated from a part very separate from who I am now as this soul- being here in this body. I have made a couple of attempts at sorting this all out with my angels and guides, but have been told that there are just some things that I am not yet ready for and I have to be okay with that. I mean, I feel really lucky to remember what I do remember and part of this is because of my NDE, where the Council allowed me to keep those memories of this pre-birth process. I’m so grateful for that. I wish the rest of my memories were that clear, especially the memories previous to my walk-in experiences, the immersion procedure and so on.

So yes, I can happily share my pre-birth memories and who knows, maybe this will somehow help to awaken the deeper knowledge of what I now know to be a projected soul experience, a part of the walk-in encounter. And you know, I guess it isn’t all that odd to still have some confusions about what happened and when and how, and this may be in part because of the missing pieces, but also the difficulty of trying to use language to explain something so intangible as to be nearly indefinable, so it’s hard to line it all up and I suppose the truth is that if we knew it all we wouldn’t be able to continue the game-plan we came to participate in. (Aaaaaghhh)

So okay, I guess to start with I might want to mention that I’m familiar with more than one life as an Arcturian soul and have retained some of those recollections. So, when the call came from planet earth for volunteers to step down into human bodies, I was in-between Arcturian incarnations, at home in the non-physical realm, at a position referred to by some as the ninth dimension or ninth density awareness. My lives as an Arcturian were spent between fifth and seventh density, mostly aboard the starship Althena, which is not only the name of the ship, but of my Arcutrian complex or family group. And a rather interesting aside here, is that when this body was born a name was chosen that holds the same resonant energetic geometry as the Arcturian essence I carry within me.

What I remember about this progression is that, like so many others, I had been summoned to what the guides refer to as the High Council, who’s job it is to prepare souls for the passage from spirit, into the physical. This Council also oversees the Akashic Records, where the accounts of every life that has ever been lived or will every be lived, is stored. So, there’s a very comprehensive process of advice and guidance and instructions that each soul must go through before incarnation - such as making absolute sure that the soul really wants to do this and is choosing from a position of love and support for all involved.

Well, to begin with I was in a place of Light, pure white Light, and noticed there were hundreds of illuminated globes floating all around me and at some point, it came to me that I too was one of these floating globes or orbs of Light. I found out later that these orbs were actually other souls, like myself, who were going through this same process of incarnation into a human baby. What I remember most clearly about this stage was being in a state of childlike excitement. These are the clearest memories, this process of counseling, where these light-beings that I thought of as my guardians, were kindly and gently explaining to me all of the potential problems or hazards I might encounter as a human, asking more than once if I was sure I really wanted to do this. I remember that they cautioning and counseled me in the potential for injury or straying off course. They warned of all the many characteristics and mannerisms of those inhabiting planet earth and what I might encounter as a human. I was shown holographic visuals of historical depictions of war and chaos, but along with remarkable gentle scenes of birth and family and landscapes of peace and beauty and laughing children playing with animals. I can still in some way sense the exhilaration I felt at the time as I realized that I would soon be living among all this stimulation. I kept saying yes, I want to go, I want to Go! I remember just wanted to get on with it. It seemed like this part of the process was taking forever.

Another part I remember well is that they made a point to explain that when a soul has never incarnated onto planet earth, the consciousness of the incoming soul will be implanted with a set of false memories of previous human lifetimes lived on earth. Now, these are not lives they have actually lived, but are inserted or projected into their memory to assist this incoming soul, by familiarizing them with, not only what it’s like to live in a human body, but those things they should avoid or fear, so they won’t, for example, put their hand in the fire or immediately get eaten by a bear. So yeah, these implanted memories are meant to acquaint them with human life, so they’ll be more familiar and comfortable with what to expect when walking-in to a human body.

I also remember clearly the love I felt for these guides and angels, for their kindness and warmth, as they instructed me on what to expect as I would be descended down through the levels of density into this human vehicle I would be living in for the duration of my stay on earth. The guides explained that once I agree to the incarnation, there would come a moment where I wouldn’t be able to turn back. I was taken to a location ... well actually I wasn’t taken, I was just there, a place that looked a lot like a very bright domed room where the walls were made of a sort of glowing bluish energy. Here I was told that since this was my first trip into the third density, if I agreed, I would be given a small demonstration of reduced frequency to help to prepare for the discomforts of the necessary slowing of light energy down into a material structure. And you know, to tell the truth, I don’t remember much about this part of the experience, I only remember being somehow pulled back out of that space into another.

It’s this next part of the pre-birth preparation that’s the clearest memory for me and consists of choosing all the details, the birth location, language, parents and others and events most wanted to encounter during this lifetime, even what were to be the physical traits and personality of the human. There were also some issues I purposely chose that were more emotional, things I had a curiosity about, like intimate human relationships and family. I have a distinct recollection of wondering what it would be like to be in a war or to hate or be jealous or to be stabbed or killed. Additionally, I wanted to meet with opportunities where there would be a clear choice between forgiveness and vengeance, for example. And just to jump in here, I admit that a few of these more emotional details that were purposely placed into the plan at that time, I did not remember choosing then, but only after the fact. For example, when I was much younger I faced a situation where I had an extreme reaction of jealousy and it wasn’t until that set of circumstances had been mended/forgiven, did I remember that it was a chosen part of my soul journey and something I had very much wanted to experience. Wow!

When I left the council area/space I was finally left with only one guide. I know he didn’t really have a name, but for some reason I’ve always remembered him as Jess, so for purposes of the conventional, I will use that name. Jess took me to what was in my memory called the circle room - or maybe that’s just what I called it. I wish I could tell you why, but.... The only vivid image I have about this space was that I seemed to be sitting on a floor. And I know, this is a little odd, because I don’t remember actually having a body at this time, just a light form, yet for some reason in my memory of this, I felt very much like I was the size of a small child, sitting on the floor, beside some sort of an oscillating opening just to my right. Jess for some reason left me there and when he returned, or when I noticed him again, he told me that I would wait here. Hmmm, well it wasn’t really that he told me this in words, it was just placed into my awareness, that I would wait and then receive a signal at which time I was to step into the opening on the floor, or whatever, of course there probably wasn’t really a floor, but I’m doing my best to describe the indescribable. Anyway, I would probably now call it a tunnel or portal but at that time it didn’t mean anything to me. I just trusted that everything would be fine and I was anxiously anticipating the next moment.

I have mixed recollections about my pre-birth journey from here, but again will do what I can to relay what I can recall. Jess had made it very clear that when he gave me the signal to leave I would need to jump on it right away. So I was ready, and yet I remember when Jess did signal me to jump or move now, I hesitated for just a split second and I know there’s really no time, so I’m not sure how all that works, but anyway I paused, not because I was afraid, but suddenly I didn’t want to leave my friends. Yet, because I knew this was very important to Jess that I leave now, I jumped or fell into the opening.

The only feeling or emotion I remember from here was one of extreme longing, like a homesickness. It was deep and painful, but only lasted a moment, or maybe my focus became caught up into the journey and what was happening around me. Truthfully, the next thing I clearly remember was arriving in the body, and the woman who was to become my mother. And, the reason this pre-birth story is still a bit confusing to me, is that, as I mentioned in a previous video, the baby did not thrive and nearly died more than once and rather than gaining from its birth weight, it lost weight and became as I said, near death. So, I have since been told by my higher guidance that I, my soul fragment, left the baby’s body and returned home, or where I came from, to walk-in at a later time. And apart from that, I had subsequently been told by my mother that as the baby’s health improved, its body didn’t respond normally, didn’t crawl or begin walking or talking until a point where my parents became very concerned about the child being disabled in some way - and what was eventually revealed to me by higher guidance, was that the reason for this was that the soul fragment, had purposely left the infant’s body because, in order to save its life, it, the baby, would need to be taken aboard the ET craft for a DNA upgrade and restoration. This is because the Arcturian soul essence frequency was not compatible for that human corporeal vessel and so, in order for the baby to develop well, its body would need to undergo a physical upgrade and this was only possible through advanced alien or extraterrestrial technology. So, obviously since I’m here in this body, vital and alive, it must have worked!

So, I apologize for the rather erratic course this information has taken, in my attempt at presenting this process, but from my perspective it just wouldn’t feel right to try to dumb it all down. So I suppose all this subsequent walk-in walk-out stuff probably needs its own video. So before I lose you completely, I’ll just leave it there and when I’m able to put together a more concise explanation of the pre-birth information together with the walk-in information, I will at that time get back to you with that video.

Until soon, bye bye!